Dienstag, 26. März 2013

Maybe not the right thing...

 Hello there,

As promised, I'm going to show you the pics of the latest events here in germany <3

Also, these events made me notice something... but I'm gonna tell you at the end of this Blog (:

The first thing happening was me getting a cold T_T" and for a week or so I couldn't do much but laze around on my sofa and...dying a little bit :'D

Then, last weekend started with the Book fair in Leipzig. We just went there by train with some friends

It was the first time I wanted to wear my COMPLETE sweet Lolita Outfit ^^ Here are the shots:

My cutie pie Marie <3 <3 <3 <3 c:

 This is one of the very rare moments I'm not wearing a wig. What makes it even weird, coz I planned to wear one, but since I couldn't find my own one and a friend of mine forgot to bring her own for me, I had no other choice ^^"
But it wasn't that much of a drama, since the color was kinda 'fitting' at least a bit this time.

I also got filmed ^^ just a small private video by another great lolita, but it's funny seeing me there in the "intro" for a few seconds. But it's a nice summary of the whole book fair and it's great Lolitas and Cosplayers! ^-^
You can see me around 00:50 seconds or so xD

Click: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SAkW4mDGJQ

 Just a week later there was the 'Märchen Tea party' in Berlin. Well, at least it looked kinda nice...

 I almost wore the same coord like at the book fair, but I wore the pink BTSSB dress of a friend. But to be honest, I wasn't in the mood for photos of myself.

You know, I'm not a Lolita for long and sometimes, now and again, I was always wondering if Lolita is actually the 'right' scene for me. But finding new lovely dresses made me block that question out all the time.
So, while I was waiting for my tea, tasting some cake (it was delicious!!) and some really wonderful looking Lolitas surrounded me, the question came up again.
After an half hour I was horrible bored.. and I mean REALLY bored, and after 2 hours I was so bored that it kinda pissed me off.
I mean... really? Sitting in a café for 2 hours and waiting for the next 4 hours, drinking tea and eating cake? That's all ? I expected me doing this when I'm a grandma with my ass-boring-grandma friends around me in 60 years, but I'm iny 20's, what the flying F*ck am I doing here?
Two hours. Two hours I could have spending drawing for my next exhibition, or learning surf-riding, or bake a f*cking awesome cake myself with my f*cking awesome friends, or apply for making a diver's liscence. But no. I'm drinking tea. In a ridiculous expensive dress. Watching a "living doll" dancer next to me doing the 'robo dance', but it's actually No damn robo-dance, no, it's supposed to look like a marionette doing the robo dance dancing like on strings or something... oh holy shit.
Never mind, I left after 2 hours and was happy as f*ck.

I'm not saying the tea party was a bad thing, but it made me just realize... maybe Lolita is not that what makes me happy. I mean truly happy.
Lolita made me met the most horrible and wrong persons of my life. Lolita made me spend money on things I rather 'need' to look 'right' - instead of things I enjoy.
Of course I was happy to get a dress, I was happy when the milky-chan bag arrived, and WOW I was happy when I finally got my BTSSB umbrella. But I'm wondering if all that was just another pathetic attempt to find myself. Or maybe just finding some friends in a City which was completely foreign to me when I moved here.
And yeah.. it kinda MADE me find another piece of myself, coz I realized a little bit more what makes me truly happy.

I'm not a doll. I don't want to make sure that not the tiniest spot comes on my dress. Damn, I'm someone who's eating with it hands, someone who's used to wear clothes at home which are FULL of acrylic/oil colors, someone who's spending hours and hours playing and ranting with my friend's dogs.

...Oh, dogs!


I will spend my money on something I love and what makes me happy. I grew up with dogs and I decieded to get one again.

Say Hello to Trixie ^_^

 I saved her from the animal shelter... she's such a cute little princess. She's so full of love and happiness!
This is what makes me happy so bad... for example. ^^

What also makes me happy is to travel. Maybe I can combine those things. This year I want to fly to MALTA with my BF, maybe I can take Trixie with me.
Playing with my dream dog on the beach... wow... that'll be worth every fucking cent <3<3<3<3

Maybe we have to look a little bit closer on things we believe to like. Maybe there are things we like even more and make us even happier. I'm sure there are many girls who truly love being lolita, sure! Everyone is on it's own way to find it's luck ^u^

I want to surround myself with people I love and that love me back. With things I enjoy without the slightest doubt. And one day I'll be completely surrounded by things that make me happy as F*ck only!!! XDDDD


Don't worry, I'm not going to stop wearing Lolita. There are still some coords on it's way I ordered some weeks ago. But I think I won't buy any more stuff for the next time. Still there's the cherry blossom festival next month and the japan day in may, where I will appear in Lolita. And still I DO have some awesome Lolita friends I don't want to dissappoint that much.

BUT... after this I will more concentrate on COSPLAY again ^^ where I never met any assholes... but a bunch of true friends <3


I hope I didn't bored you too much with this XD

 Jen <3

Mittwoch, 13. März 2013

I'm so lucky lucky!

Hello there! <3

Wow! Last week was so lucky! And I mean REALLY LUCKY! o_O

Week started that I've found a brand new hello-kitty-purse on the floor. It wasn't even dirty and the price tag was still on it.

When I came home there were two free coupons for the cinema in my postbox.

Later I walked to the copyshop, because I had to print some large photos for university. I just got some huge discount because of spontaneous kindness xDDDD Aaaaaaawww Yeeeeeaaaaah!!
Also my grades in University were just fine <3 I'm really glad!

 And finally my BTSSB Umbrella arrived <3

Isn't he lovely? I feel like a princess with that thing XD <3

Oh wait! There was even more luck! 
I just went to the bank, where a young hair stylist came to me and asked "hey there, would you like getting a new haircut for free?" and I was like "sure why not? XD"
because she was a trainee and needed someone she can train with ^^
So I got a new hair cut and some coffee for free ^O^

Now my hair is short XD but that's okay, because my hair was pretty much broken at the bottom

And I just finished a new artwork, have a look (:

I had a really SPECIAL shooting some weeks ago!
GOSH it was awesome! And no, for any reason I really didn't freeze ö___ö
Guess the sky latern gave really much heat!

Please wait for my NEXT POST ^_^ Becaaaaause

There are many reasons to wear Lolita this month!

There's the convention on saturday, the Leipziger Buchmesse, 

Also we have a huge "Fairy tale tea Party" in town!

See you then! ^__^